My hospital visit
Frantically packing at the last minutePacking shitLosing all my witsOver how to pack in an organised fashionAll my latest fashions
Sitting on my bumIs not that much funIn my hospital gownI hardly stunYou taking my dirty plates outAnd laundryLeaves me in a bad stateAs you come intoThe roomI am filled with doomYou no longer feel like my groomHow I love being wheeled around by youIt is part of the deal and ordealAs I feel your presence I can feel your very essenceI never want our session to finishYou are my great obsessionAs you tell me you are singleI feel you are telling me something Simple
Yet significant Feeling like an invalidNo longer validReceiving no admiration Or adulation Please don't hang up on meI'll hang myself or at leastGang up on you If you doFreaking out as I Sneak out into the nightAnd let myself have a peek of youAnd even a bite of youYou yelled at me my fellowFor being so soft and shallowLooking at this set of pencilsGiven to me as part of my mindfulness exercise to colour inI fancy myself as a bit of an artistEven though
The only thing I do is to draw the curtainsHow glad I am not to have to bear this dreadful drillThat rings so shrillAgainst my willWhen I am so illNo longer so downAs I take off my hospital gownAnd become alive againDiscarding this depressing hospital gownAs I stoop down before youI try not to let my boobs droopAs I unashamedly try to woo youAnd take you for all your lootIt's so hard to be serious Even when you're so devious and mischievous As I dissolve this tablet into waterI almost drift awayI feel myself sinking lower and lowerInto a sea of blood and blasphemy Drinking pure water I hope to not turn into a puritanBut a humanitarian insteadLying here in this holeI try to feel wholeTrying to do as I am told Making a few bold movesAs I swing out of bedAnd hang onto my mobility devicesWhich I am getting the hang ofAlmost like learning how toDrive a carAnd showing lots of driveIn bedNot even well readJust eating breadStaring right aheadAs you help me pack up my thingsI no longer feel stuck in the same placeFalling steadily in many different waysNo longer feeling the sun's raysTaking your crapUnable to get off your lapFeeling trapped Even when smackedI can really feel your strap and slapSending