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Bad day pose

  • 21 October 2008
Shapes

What is the difference between a square and a rectangle? I have no spatial knowledge. I get confused. I can't describe. Difference. Why bother trying.

Adieu to Burn Out

My dearest bed I would like to apologise for weighing you down I've been too much lately haven't I? Suffocating you with my dreams Keeping you awake with my snoring Bullying you with my tosses and turns Overstaying my welcome in your well mannered heaven

I've let you down by not looking after you By not making you up By pretending to be your closest intimate buddy But leaving you for dead Every time my other friend The fridge entices me with her sensuous delights

I can understand it if you no longer want me near you

I agree we should just be friends and see each other only occasionally

Night times are best for both of us. Don't you think?

Adieu mon amie Until the moon floats through the air Adieu

Jewellery A ring magically encircles my finger A necklace swings gracefully like a dancer Earrings dangle around my crazy head An anklet delightfully enchains me A chain is extra special when it has a cross Bracelets run rings around me Nose rings? Don't these people pick their noses?

Bank Accounts

I.

Ever diminishing Not growing Impossible to save Temptations Never enough money

II.

Breaking my brain Breaking my back with their bad balance Breaking my heart not being able to buy things Breaking me up into small change

Driving people away

Life as a vacuum Just watch me in my ivory tower I hated the litter of us There were too many skies to climb Your eyes stay still as my hair sways The stereo blasting, lights switched on Drowns the small clicks of her feet

Celebrity status

Red the color of danger The way to go Look delicious Looking at me I feel paranoid Practically naked Gawking and staring I just want to relax The camera notices Admired Turn cameras off on bad days Blowouts from night before Life in the public eye is hard Self-conscious I just want to hide under the waves And drag my body along Beached Whale

Love

1. I watch him listening to me Head to one side Eyes searching Ears pinned back His shoulders ready to steady me

2. See how he cares for me Deeply as the sea

3. He understands me like a book he'll Never have to read

Isabella Fels is a Melbourne writer who has suffered from schizophrenia for over 10 years. She featured with her family on ABC TV's Australian Story in 2002.